Her words will make you laugh but present so much truth. She is trying this whole graduate, get a job, grow up thing... it teaches you things, of that I am confident. I am forever thankful for her outlook on growing up and graduating.
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There is a time for
everything, and a season for every activity under heaven (Ecclesiastes
3:1).
This- these months
right out of college- this is a time for tearing down.
This is a time when
your best friends are living in Hawaii and New York and Colorado and you
realize you’re not officially a resident of any state and you’re not really
sure where your home is but your happy to have your passport because at least
you have something that says you’re an American.
This is a time when
your friends are falling in love and getting engaged and marrying their best
friend and you’re getting spam emails from
ChristianMingle.
This is a time of
realizing maybe setting up all your automatic bill pays for the same exact day wasn’t the most fiscally
responsible decision you’ve ever made. And
a time of looking at your checking account and realizing maybe things like
Oreos and really good wine actually are wants not needs.
Also: a time of
buying Oreos and really good wine and eating them for dinner at 9 o’clock
because damn it you’re an adult and you’ll do as you please.
This is a time of
feeling so weird and so unlike yourself that- hot
butter and oil Seth!- you convince
yourself you probably, definitely have diabetes only to have a doctor recommend
that you just go home and eat a sandwich.
Consequently, this is
a time of crying in the parking lot because you didn’t really understand how
health insurance works and it just cost you $78 to get your finger
pricked.
Have I convinced you
that I’m doing a good job being an adult yet?
Transitions are hard and right now it feels like I’m not getting, well,
anything right. But in the past few weeks I have found comfort in the Lord’s
promise that this is a season in my life. It is hard to imagine when you are in
the middle of something that things will ever change. But we live and we do change
and there are seasons to our life.
“He has made
everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of
men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. I know
that there is nothing better for men than to be happy and do good while they
live. That everyone may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all his toil-
this is the gift of God. I know that everything God does will endure forever;
nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that men
will revere him.” (Ecclesiastes 3:11-14)
Today I will trust
that this is a season in my life. I will trust that even if I don’t always like
this season
that it is designed so that I may know Jesus more and know that He
is enough and trust that He is good. A
few days ago I felt frustrated at everything and I realized two important
things.
1.
For
everybody who is growing up right now, this is the first time they’ve ever done
it. I don’t really know how to move from 22 to 23 because this is the first
time I’ve ever done that. So I’m figuring it out. And it won’t always go that
well, but the Lord promises me “I
will lead the blind by ways they have not known, along unfamiliar paths I will
guide them; I will turn the darkness into light before them and make the rough
places smooth. These are the things I will do; I will not forsake them.”
(Isaiah 42:16).
2.
I have
never lived a day in my life where Jesus didn’t give me all the grace I needed
to get through the day. Never. I will not have to figure out a way to make it
through tomorrow without His grace. “For from his fullness we have all received
grace upon grace” (John 1:16). And this
means that I do not need to figure out next month or next year or the next
season of life right now because I’m getting there just as fast as I can and
when I do get there, there will be that grace that I need for that day. When
Jesus teaches us to pray, he teaches us to ask the Lord to “Give us each day
our daily bread” (Luke 11:3). My heart wants to live so far out in the future
(yo, Jordan the heart is wicked amirite), but Jesus is giving me all the grace
I need for today.
Well, that’s what I
think about all day long in the cube. Star employee over here. Deuces.
PS there are also a
lot of really fun parts of being 22 and out of college and living the life and
being single and I do have a savings account and sometimes I still eat
vegetables for dinner. Mostly including
this in case my momma reads this and is worried about me. Love ya Nance.
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