Yesterday I tore open the pages of my journal from this past summer at Timber Wolf. I was hit by a flood of thoughts... so many memories from the summer storming back in... so much love for that camp... so many hilarious stories... so much rawness... so many things that I thought I had learned,
but I seem to have forgotten.
I learned so much this summer. The Lord was challenging me, growing me, and stretching me in so many different ways. But today, those "lessons" from the summer are "lessons" once again. What I had considered learned, now seems like a distant memory... and I am in major need of (re)learning.
It seems to me that one of the biggest ways that Satan can attack us is through forgetting... forgetting what the Lord has done in us already. He hides all of the beautiful and righteous things that the Lord has done from our memory, so that it makes it difficult to recall the Lord's faithfulness.
Now while forgetting may be one of Satan's ploys, the Lord is already victorious for He has defeated death.
As Satan makes us forget what the Lord has done, the Lord can use that as an opportunity to reteach us, to extend us grace, to love us, and to call us back to Himself... what a beautiful and gracious God we have.
So I now find myself in a season of (re)learning. I say (re)learning because the situations and contexts are different, but the lessons are the same.
And to be honest, I feel a little lost and a lot confused... but my words are the same as Jehoshaphat's when he was about to face a vast army that he was unprepared for:
"(I) do not know what to do, but (my) eyes are upon You." -2 Chronicles 20:12
And I will cling to Him. I will cling to my God. He says, "I am with you and will watch over you wherever you go, and I will bring you back to this land. I will not leave you until I have done what I have promised you" (Genesis 28:15). He is calling me back... calling me back to the lessons I thought I had learned... and He will not leave me.
I trust Him, because "thus far, the Lord has helped" (1 Samuel 7:12). He has been faithful before, and He will be faithful again.
"I will remember the deeds of the Lord, Yes, I will remember your miracles of long ago." -Psalm 77:11
Today I am thankful for my journal. I am thankful for all of the words I wrote to the Lord this summer and all the truths He declared in my writing. I encourage you to journal or to write down what the Lord is doing in your life and what He is teaching you so that one day you can go back and read it... so that you can remember all that the Lord has done and so that Satan's grip on our forgetfulness is loosened.