Sarah's post is on something that comes to my mind often and something that I have struggled and wrestled with for some time now. She shares from her heart one of the biggest fears of being a graduating senior, chasing after Jesus, getting ready to move into that that big, bad thing, known as the "real world." I am confident that the Lord has a hold of Sarah's heart and I cannot wait to see where the Spirit leads her. Her post reminds me of one of my favorite pieces of Scripture: "For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." -Romans 8:38-39 O, praise Him!
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I felt like it was easier to
trust in God’s plan when I had no idea what it was.
This whole year I have been
applying for different things, interviewing, and trusting and knowing that God
had a great plan for me. I honestly was
confident in that. And surprisingly, I
was very peaceful with this floating unknown plan God had for me, because I was confident
it would come and just hadn’t revealed itself yet.
Only when those plans started to
come to fruition did I begin to have a minor freak out. The future became much more real.
I am going to move on.
I am going to be somewhere new.
I am not going to be surrounded
by my community.
I won’t be living in the
McMansion.
I won’t have as many friends.
But those were small fears, hiding behind a much bigger
issue. I realized my being scared of the
future had nothing to do with a new city and starting a job. I was excited for that. When I began to wrestle with decisions I
might have to make, I realized that the fear that was weighing down on me was my fear of falling away from the Lord after
college. I’ve seen what life looks
like when that happens, and it is a life I want to run as far away from as
possible. While at UNC, I have been beyond blessed by the people God has put in
my life, and I can honestly say I couldn’t have asked for better friends that
love me and push me towards the Lord.
And I know how much they have influenced me.
Now, I am not usually that
serious of a journaler, but on my way back from an interview in Atlanta, my
flight was delayed several hours, and boy did I journal. Hardcore.
I just poured out all my fears to the Lord, and pleaded with him over
and over again, “Keep a fire lit in my
heart for you, don’t ever let me lose my passion, please help me to always make
you my first priority, how can I be a light in my office? Lord, PLEASE don’t let me fall away from you
after school.”
I
desperately want to live my life for you.
I don’t just want an easy life.
And then I came across this.
Psalm 34:4
“I sought the Lord and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.”
And through that I was so
comforted. I was worrying about falling
away from the Lord, and He has just been telling me, “seek Me, and you will
find Me. Don’t worry Sarah, keep seeking
Me, and be confident in that.” He will
deliver me from my fears, and I am confident in that.
Jeremiah 17:7 “But blessed is the man who
trusts in the Lord, whose confidence is in him.”
So, that is what I have been
learning. Take hope. The Lord is good. He loves us, he has a plan for us, and he
wants to cast out all of our fears. All
we have to do is let Him.
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